"The Group" had lunch together again today with our children. Am I a part of that? Did I just say "our children?" I have a child? I know I do ... I just wonder when it will sound normal to hear things like that?
Noah slept ten hours straight last night! But today, the only nap he would take was when he just collapsed at lunch. The first picture is Noah and me at lunch. Noah was pretty much bright eyed and bushy-tailed ... so I thought.
When he gets tired, he falls on my chest and sucks his little thumb and usually a piece of my shirt with it. Moments like these are so beautiful to me.
One thing led to another ... and he was OUT like a light!
When we got back to the apartment, he was still OUT ... in his snow suit and all!
Took off that snow suit ... still sound asleep!
There's something else I'd like to share that I have found quite odd. In the playroom at the orphanage, I noticed there was always a t.v. on. This helps me understand why Noah responds to a t.v. in the strange way that he does. If I turn on the t.v., all that matters is that t.v. screen. He gets in a trance ... totally mesmerized. So, I am using this to my advantage while I'm here. If I have to run to the bathroom, I just turn on the t.v!!!
Noah is becoming very clingy ... and I don't mean that in a bad way. He wants me near him. He'll reach out his little hand for me. It's enough sometimes that he is just holding on to my finger ... or my pants leg ... or has his hand on my arm. I don't know if he is afraid I will (really) leave him or if it just comforts him in a way that he needs right now or both. He also doesn't want to take naps in his crib now. Today during his nap time and while in his crib ... he cried for about 45 minutes. I kept thinking, "Jayne, let him soothe himself. He'll be fine." Nope, couldn't do it. I finally took him out and laid on the couch with him. He laid on my chest sucking his thumb for the next hour. He wouldn't sleep but he was content as long as he was right there with me. I watched him and thought to myself ... "How is it that you're perfect for me?" He'd raise himself up just off my chest and flash a little grin and plop back down and start sucking again. I kept wondering ... "Why is this child doing this cute stuff ... is he trying to melt my heart?" And he would raise up again, look into my eyes ... let out a giggle ... plop back down on my chest and start sucking that thumb again.